I guess it's because I have two parents who never seem to fail at anything that makes me feel so horrible when I have to give up on something. I realized 2 weeks ago that I was failing at everything. Ethan was crabby all the time, Ella was acting out, I was stressed beyond belief, my house was a mess, and I had primary teachers letting me know what a bad job I was doing. I always thought failing was not an option for church callings, but I decided better to fail at that, than everything in my life, so I asked to be released as Primary President. I have never asked to be released before, and it was humiliating, but now that it's all over I feel awesome. The Bishopric was very understanding since one of my counselors never showed up and the other is pregnant with her 6th child (and is the Bishops wife). With Olivia being my little tumor (permanently attached to my side) I just couldn't pull the extra weight.
I didn't get off scott free, though. I was called to be the Achievement Day leader for the 8-11 year old girls, which is the calling I had when I first moved here and LOVED it. I was also called to be a Relief Society instructor. Some of my friends think this isn't much of a break, but 3 days a month is WAY better than everyday as Primary President (because of all the craziness here). When you have a ward as small as ours every person has to do double duty, even crazy, overstressed mothers and fathers (Eric is 11 year old scouts leader, and ward emergency preparedness coordinator).
One of the thing that cheered me up this week was this picture. Iwas finally cleaning up and pulled this stuffed animal out from under the table. I guess it was jail, and this poor bunny had broken the law. One of Ethan' favorite games is to have his stuffed animals break the law, and then he is the cop and prosecutor and Eric plays the judge. Ethan laughs so hard when bunnies and bears are sentenced to hard labor making Easter eggs, or collecting honey.
The picture at the top is from the mall. Ella wanted to ride the horse and Ethan tried to ride on the back, but kept sliding off. This is why I am a Mom, I love how silly my kids are.
Another fun thing for me is to look over and see Eric holding Livi. My heart melts evertime I see her tiny body cuddled up in his big strong arms.
1 comment:
I will never judge you for asking for a release. Balance is such an elusive thing in most people's life. I'd say learning to live YOUR life the best YOU can is actually a success.
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